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On August 1st, I started my new job as the Discovery and Delivery Director for the California Digital Library, the digital arm for the 10 University of California campuses. After one week on the job, I wrote about what the differences between this job and my previous job as a public library director. One month in I have some further thoughts.

Since being at CDL I have noticed a few changes in myself that indicate an objective decrease in my stress level:

  • I am sleeping an average of 45 minutes a night longer. Sleep is good.
  • I have not woken up with what I call “my spinny spinny brain” in the middle of the night all month. This used to happen multiple times per night.
  • My heart rate while I’m at work is several BPM lower and has fewer spikes throughout the day.

I have also noticed some subjective changes:

  • I am told I’m joking around more–my dry and dark sense of humor poking its skull up from the ground again.
  • I swear less. No, really. I know, right? But it’s true. It’s not a conscious decision but both at work and away from work I’m swearing a *lot* less frequently.
  • I feel less anti-social, less irritable, and less easily startled. Following a surprising (to me) diagnosis of PTSD a few years ago, unfortunately from workplace stressors and incidents, I became easily startled by everyday things, anti-social, and irritable. To me, these subjective changes show that something in my PTSD brain is healing. I could write all day about grappling with/fighting against/accepting/researching this diagnosis. But if I’m getting better in this small way, hurrah for me.

Some things haven’t changed.

  • I’m still having to think hard all day, which is good. Some thinking-tasks are the same–organizational politics, strategic planning, risk assessment. I’m also using other parts of my brain. Long-dormant neural pathways are waking up…the parts that handle complex technology challenges, wading through large bureaucracies, and research (I get to research things as a librarian again–whoa).
  • There is a lot of overlap in the skills, knowledge, and experience required for both jobs. As a result, I’m feeling a lot less at sea than I thought I would.
  • I’m still physically exhausted when I get home. Maybe it’s the increased amounts of sitting time on the job and in the car, or maybe it’s just the way I will feel after any workday. I’m not 25 anymore, after all.

Over the last month I’ve been asked by three different organizations to present about some aspect of health in the workplace–self-care, mental health best practices, and creating healthy workplace atmospheres. I have never spoken or written about this topic so it initially struck me as odd that I was getting these requests, seemingly out of nowhere. But after further thought, it’s no coincidence that people are asking me this. Firstly, it’s an emerging hot topic in our field and others. Secondly, I think people who follow me on social media probably sensed how challenging I found aspects of my last job. I also put together a panel proposal on the topic for ALA Annual because it’s an important issue with real world consequences for all of us every day.

In short, life is pretty great. I’m really glad to have joined the team at CDL, and can’t wait to see what we’ll do next as a team. Expect to see some pretty radical stuff in the next few months.

I have now been at my job as the Director of Discovery and Delivery at the California Digital Library (an arm of the University of California) for one whole week. Although I had a couple of weeks off between starting this job and my last day as the Director of the San Rafael Public Library, I have still been startled by some of the differences. Here are a few, in no particular order.

1) It is quiet-ish at CDL. It was loud-ish at SRPL. At SRPL I wore headphones sometimes to drown out the background conversations, noise, and distractions so I could concentrate. At CDL I’m finding I’m wearing headphones just to have some kind of sound other than my tummy rumbling or the random loud truck on the street below.

2) I no longer work nights or weekends, nor am I on-call for anything. I cannot overstate the impact this is already having on my brain. When I walk out that door at the end of the day, I’m done. I think about work a bit during my commute, but the separation between work and home is already much firmer. This is a massively healthy change for me.

3) There is an actual door to my office. Does it seem silly that I’m wide-eyed over a door? Unless you’ve ever worked in an open office environment as a manager, you may not be able to appreciate the significance of a 4×8 piece of wood.

4) Speaking of my office, we’re talking a night and day difference. I moved from a basement office in a 100+ year old building with all the expected problems of a building that age vs. a new, modern office setting on the fourth floor with a view of Downtown Oakland.

5) I’m still very new and I am fully cognizant that I’m still in the slow roll-up to being “normal busy.” But “normal busy” at CDL appears so far to involve time-intensive and thoughtful decision-making and (so far) no crisis management. The most serious thing that’s happened so far would have ranked a 1 on my 1-10 scale of seriousness. After being used to dealing with in-the-moment-crises or perceived crises almost every day that ranked 5-10s (at least to me–everyone’s scale is different), this is hugely refreshing. I am enjoying moving through my work day with more intentionality and with less necessarily reactionary mechanics.

6) This job change has involved a huge shift in the type of responsibility I have. Instead of being responsible for two facilities, digital services, and 60-70 people, I’m responsible for digital services and products and a dozen people who are themselves in charge of various digital services. The scale is similar but the scope is less complicated.

7) My commute to SRPL was a whopping 2 minute drive or 10 minute walk. I now spend 1.5-2 hours a day commuting between San Rafael and Oakland, and yet–even if you count my commute time as “work” I am still “working” fewer hours than I was at SRPL.

8) Bureaucratic levels always increase as the size of the organization increases. With the UC system, of course I expected bureaucracy to increase. But it’s not unreasonable. I will, however, miss the ability to say “Yeah, sure–let’s buy that software. Here’s my credit card” or “Hell yes we can do a drag queen storytime–bring it on.”

So, what’s the same?

1) People are people. Better said, people who work for libraries are people who work for libraries. We’re not in it for the fame or fortune. By and large, we want our work to have a positive impact on the world. At both jobs I have been fortunate to be surrounded by many smart, well-spoken, and well-intentioned people.

2) My desk is still ridiculously neat and I have my favorite toys with me. Dana Scully and Fox Mulder stand next to Nancy Pearl, who’s looking at Dale Cooper and Laura Palmer.

3) I still, and hopefully always will, have a literal open door policy (except when I need to close that precious, precious door for a confidential meeting).

It’s a new journey, folks. As with all journeys I expect things to morph, change, and evolve as time goes on. I look forward to the path ahead and am immensely thankful to everyone at CDL helping me on the way.

Moving Forward

February 6, 2018 | Comments (2)

Hey-o folks. I’ve been more incommunicado than usual, I know. Feel free to lob rotten fruit and molotov cocktails in the general direction of Northern California.

In September I had a bad fall whilst doing laundry (!) and fractured my right ankle and shattered my left patella (kneecap) so ended up on two months of bed-bound rest. I used to think two months of reading, watching movies and series, doing needlepoint, and petting cats would be great. I was wrong. There is too much of a good thing. Medically-forced rest isn’t the same as a vacation, especially when you’re doing it with zero painkillers. I’ve been back at work for a couple of months now, got rid of my walker and cane, and now just have a slow limp to show off. I’ve been told it looks like a cowgirl swagger. I’ll take that.

One of the only good things about my time away from work was that I thought long and hard about the future. I didn’t know for sure if I’d be walking again without assistance. What would that look like? How would that change my life? I thought about home life, work life, and the intersection between the two. What is rewarding to me, and what is not? Where does my joy sit in the universe, and where are the pain points? Where and how do I want to spend my time on this earth, and where and how do I not?

I’m not the type of person to write a motivational post. Well, unless it’s a social justice call to action motivational post, I suppose. But here you go, some motivational shit.

Every time I see the sign below on the pavement or on a street sign, I smile.

Every time I see this sign it reminds me that in life there is no going backward. It’s a small visual kick-in-the-butt to re-focus forward. We each have a multitude of decisions we make every day. We can go left, right, straight, or anywhere in that spectrum in between–but we can’t go backward. Ruminating on the past, lamenting the past, aching for the past is absolutely without joy, because you can’t go there again. Think of the sign above again with an unlimited splay of arrows in every direction (except backward). Which way do you go today with the decision you’re facing now?

Lately I often find myself discussing the pervasiveness of the mid-30s-mid-40s crossroads mode that many of my colleagues and friends find ourselves in. Typical conversations involve questions like: Do I keep doing what I’ve been doing? Do I look for a new challenge? Something adjacent to what I do now or something totally different? Do I actually even like what I do? Do I feel like I’m good at what I do? Do I want another degree? Do I drop it all, pack it up, and move away to do something totally unrelated?

Do I keep on with my family life as it has been or look for something new? Am I satisfied, content even? Do I even like my home situation much less love it? How can I make it better? Have I become complacent? Am I good at being a mom/dad/husband/wife/partner/boyfriend/girlfriend/son/daughter/whatever? Do I fake my own death and start a new life off the grid in the woods?

I don’t have the answers for myself quite yet. But after nearly a decade as a library technologist and seven years as a library administrator I’m solidly mid-career, and not sure what to do with the skills I have. Where can I do the most good? Where does my skill-set match up best with the challenges that exist in our world? After being in several long term relationships, with whom can I do the most good and where does my personality match up best with the other person’s?

And I keep looking at that street sign. No matter what, in my personal and professional life I need to keep moving forward. What’s gone before matters less than keeping my eyes trained to my front and sides and looking for opportunities. Because you never know when that one word, that one conversation, that one chance encounter, is going to take place that changes your course for the better.

Operation 451: Mission 1

September 26, 2017 | Comments (0)

It’s here…the last mission for Operation 451. Mission 1 comes at a timely point during a national discussion of the true meaning free speech and the First Amendment. And it also coincides with Banned Books Week!

The First Amendment is key to a free society, and key to the ethics we uphold in libraries.

“Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances.”

We have some ideas on the Operation 451 website, big and small, so that anyone working in a library can accomplish at least one of these to support freedom of speech and the press in the many ways that plays out in our communities every day.

Go do some good. 

Operation 451 is back with a new mission: Mission 5, to ensure that “A person’s right to use a library should not be denied or abridged because of origin, age, background, or views.” – Library Bill of Rights, Article V.

What can you do in your library to support this today? A lot! And we have some ideas for you.

Engage with Mission 5.

Operation 451 is proud to announce Mission 4–our next call to action for library workers, library supporters, and lovers of free expression and free access to ideas everywhere.

Mission 4 is all about the 4th Article of the Library Bill of Rights: “Libraries should cooperate with all persons and groups concerned with resisting abridgment of free expression and free access to ideas.” – Library Bill of Rights, Article IV

We’ve set some challenges for you as library workers, some ideas for what library workers can do to serve our communities, what we can do to support our co-workers, what library supporters can do, and a call for your ideas.

You can also read a new update on what we’re envisioning for 451 for the future, why we’re doing this, and what we hope people can get out of it.

Follow along with Operation 451 on our website or our Facebook page.

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In June 2016, the American Library Association’s Intellectual Freedom Committee released a set of Library Privacy Guidelines, a set of seven library service-specific guidelines “intended to assist librarians, libraries, schools and vendors to develop best practices for online privacy and data management and security.”

From then until January 2017, a 40+ person group of volunteers from the LITA Patron Privacy Interest Group and the ALA Intellectual Freedom Committee’s Privacy Subcommittee (led by myself and Mike Robinson) was busy at work creating a practical set of checklists to help libraries of all sizes, types, and staffing expertise to audit and improve their privacy practices.

These checklists match up with the seven library service areas of the guidelines and are tiered into priority actions within each checklist–actions that we think all libraries can take all the way up to “ideal scenario” privacy practices that are dependent on staff expertise and available resources. The checklists were approved at the ALA Midwinter Conference and are ready for prime time.

So therefore,  I give you this huge group of talented and genius volunteers’ labor of love: The Library Privacy Checklists.

I am going to be working in my own library starting this week to conduct a privacy audit of our practices and begin improving what we can. I cannot overstate how much I hope that each and every library of every size and every type will use these checklists as a way to safeguard our users’ information to the very best of our ability. It’s our job. It’s our responsibility. And for some of us, it’s our passion.

Go forth and protect.

 

Andy Woodworth and I are pleased to announce the launch of Operation 451.

Operation 451 offers a way you can show support and solidarity for core library ethics in this tumultuous time. Read more and get involved at the Operation 451 website.

If you’re headed to ALA Midwinter, check out my session on Monday, January 23rd, at 10:30am: 21st Century Library Ethics. This session is part of the Symposium on the Future of Libraries and free to anyone with general conference registration.

You can bet your bippy I’ll have lots to say about the ethical issues and challenges facing us right now as library professionals. If there’s something you’re hoping I’ll discuss, pop it into the comments here or message me.

Greetings all. I have been appointed as the Library and Information Technology Association’s representative to the Legislation Assembly, an arm of the ALA Committee on Legislation.

At this critical time in our nation’s history I am excited about the opportunity to participate in this way and want to do the best job possible.

To that end, please comment below or email me at [email protected] with pending legislation with which you think LITA and/or the Legislation Assembly should be concerned, either in support or opposition. Do you have ideas for resolutions that you think the Assembly should recommend to the Committee on Legislation?

For more on the Committee and the Legislation Assembly (context is everything), see the ALA website.

My term ends at Annual in 2017, so this invitation extends out several months.

I’m listening.